3.8.06
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COWS GO MOO !
10:26 PM
I'll wait for the postman,
To bring me a letter.
And I'll wait for the good Lord
To make me feel better.
Long walks home, yes they make me think alot. Thoughts come. They hurt. But I refuse to think about it because it hurts too much and I'm plain childish and cowardly. Nat makes me laugh dang alot, esp during chinese and ongshan will give us these terrible stares. Today it was how lians talk, like kekes and wakakaka. Omg la, the way she pronounced it make it crack but we couldnt laugh out loud, rather hilarious. AND FOR THE LAST TIME, MY ENGLISH ISN'T THAT BAD! Yes i have terrible spelling and limited vocab, but i have no problems conversing in english. If she didnt say it during chinese I'd have screamed. Classroom deco was okay i guess, but it was evident which classes were the ones competing, like J F L G and the rest were, okay nevermind. And I dont know why but I miss shan's bimbo comments and weird stuff, well she'll back soon. Shit I own tons of homework. Aye Sandra, dont be like that! Char&I are raising flag on national day, we're both bloody excited :B which means we wont have to be in the contingent practicing drills tmr, which is :DDDDDDDDDDD And hell, stop acting close lor, I know you fake one!
You know I hate You. I do. I hate You so so much. But did You know I love You more? And so what if there are others better than You? I dont care.
And it's okay. Really you dont need to apologise, I just wish you'd share your feelings with someone, anyone. And yes, it was a bad mistake, but you can learn from it. Okay who am I to say this again. Oh gosh, please fix your phone!
Oh and I must be the lousiest sister in the whole damn world. I'm so sorry my most beloved brother, for forgetting your birthday ): And I'm late by two days.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL ONG :D
if you see this then something must be terribly wrong. because how the hell would you know my blog?(Please tell me you dont)
I love this song hell lots:
I will promise myself I won't care
distracting myself from your stare
and I've seen this mistake once before
with your games I will never fall for
I've hung up my guns
I won't kill again
I won't forget you
I'm not gonna let you win
but I'm tired of lying
tired of fighting you
and it's not gonna change
You ask for my heart
you know that I'm down
but not the way you lie to me
you tear it all apart and beg for me to say
I sail off to sea
I'm not coming back
Counting down
Make that sounds
When you know it makes no sense
Counting down
Till you mess around
When I know you can't ever change
Why am I trembling?
Throw it overboard
When I'm ready to we'll progress
Counting down
Make that sounds
Break the silence
Pretend it's not for never
I'll pull myself together
I'll say that I'll forget her
I'll breathe
And I'll say she never hurt me
And look at it as learning
And laugh about the good and the bad
Because I won't live forever
We don't belong together
I know I'll be all better
One day when I can make it through